I unintentionally took a blogging break and then I impromptu took a life break too. Life has been a whirlwind for the last three months. Becoming my own boss, going freelance, and settling into my new lifestyle has been incredibly difficult. So let me fill you in before blog posts continue as normal, because I think you’ll value the honesty.
I work too much
The greatest concern when you go freelance is that there won’t be enough work, there won’t be enough money. That just wasn’t the case for me. I had bagged a few clients and before I knew it, and without really trying, they just quadrupled within days. I had more work than I ever imagined and, I’m not going to lie, I’ve increased my salary to a figure I didn’t think possible. I’m not going to talk salaries but it was an increase of £12,000, just for my bravery in leaving my last job and deciding to pave my own way. But, unfortunately, the workload was a little overwhelming! I overdid things, I had no time for reading, for writing, for blogging. I could barely be in bed before 3am. I worked like that for three months. Now I’m done. I have to be sensible about this.
Last week, I found myself in some sort of fit because my steam cleaner wasn’t working. It wasn’t about the steam cleaner, of course. I was so overwhelmed, with no time for anything, no time for myself. I rang my mum about the steam cleaner, for some advice, and ended up packing a suitcase and fleeing my house for the week. I left the incredibly hot and noisy city and stayed at my parents house in the countryside. I worked a few hours a day, then sat in a hot tub, spent time with family and slept as I should.
The world didn’t end
I took a three hour car journey and, although there were emails and people trying to reach me, I couldn’t answer, I didn’t answer and something amazing happened: nothing. No one cared about my deadlines. No one cared about my lack of communication. No one noticed I wasn’t at my desk. That was the revelation I needed. In the grand scheme of things, I don’t matter and I don’t have to hold the world together all the time. Tonight, I started at half 7, I took a full hour lunch break at 1 and I finished the day at 6:30. I walked my dog, spent time with my boyfriend, took blog photos and caught up on The Handmaid’s Tale. My business phone did go off but I did not answer. And the world is still in tact.
At the end of the day, I’m still learning how to do this whole ‘be your own boss’ thing. It will ease itself out in time! But I’m back, I’m refreshed, I have a stricter policy on work hours and that leaves time for passion projects such as blogging and reading! I just wanted to explain a little bit about my absence before diving right back in!